Crazy

I am insane. I am busy. I am stressed. I am not sleeping. I am confused emotionally, spiritually, physically. I am exhausted. I am finding new depths of energy. I am understanding things. I am feeling lost beyond belief. I am just trying to keep going.
Life is a little confusing lately. Some things are amazing, some are not. But it all just keeps going, no matter how tired or sore or confused I am. That's good. Just knowing that the earth is still spinning gets me out of bed in the morning.
I am learning to like running. Every day I can go just a little farther. I'm learning a lot about the area, which is fun. I went down to Kollen Park today (3 miles round trip, be impressed), which is right on Lake Macatawa (I think, correct me if I'm wrong). It was absolutely gorgeous. I got in sight of the sun off the water just as the big swell in Jupiter (I like to run to Holst's The Planets) came. It was perfect. That image got me all the way home. I love this town, even though I complain about it. Just being able to run around and look at the landscape is nice.
I'm getting used to waking up with the trains. I still wake up, but every night I'm a little less bitter about it. They are annoying, but there's nothing I can do about them. So I just roll over and go back to sleep after they are gone. Maybe when winter comes I'll be able to sleep through the night...
I miss my friends who are far away, but I'm really enjoying my girlies here. They are always around to talk, and they are super funny. Lisa and Mary yesterday were trying to kill this gigantic moth, and I don't think I could have laughed harder. Then today we were doing an interpretive dance to a poem that Mary was making up about my eyes. Hilarious. Alyssa claims she never sees me not sweaty, and Emily must think I'm as crazy as she is (we both tend to be up all night all the time). But they are great, and I can't imagine this year without them. Go girlies!! :)
Okay, I suppose I should get back to my studying. I've actually been doing my homework lately. It takes a lot of time, no wonder I never did it before. Oh well, hopefully it will help in the grade department. We'll see.