Better

I guess I'm better. A little, at least. I'm still scared out of my mind about life after graduation. I'm still over-booked and under-rested. I'm still dealing with issues of friends and boyfriends. But I'm not crying constantly or yelling at nothing any more. Mama says she cried a lot in college, too, she just chooses now to tell the stories of the more fun times. This last week definitely won't go on the tell-a-lot list.
I watched some of Beauty and the Beast last night. It was awesome. I stopped before the scary part with the Beast hunting, so I didnt' have to get all upset. But it was so fun, I remember all the words to the songs, I remember being awed at the computer graphics in the ball room that now look so lame compared to newer stuff, I remember exactly what parts I was happy or terrified of in the theater the first time I saw it. My friend this summer wanted to go see the stage show, I'm glad I didn't cause it could never be the magical ride of the movie. Seeing people running around in teapot costumes just doesn't have the same flair.
I have my first exam of the semester this Wednesday. I'm really liking the class, the material is fascinating. But the book is a graduate level text. So it makes absolutely no sense. My usual studying regimen is to read the book chapters, then go back and compare the things I read to my notes. This time, I'm not even comprehending the chapters. Did we even learn the stuff the book is talking about? So many big words, so few explanations. It makes me happy I'm not going into grad school for science. I would be slaughtered in no time.
Kathleen and I saw "Good Night, and Good Luck" on Saturday. It was really good. The cinematography was cool, it totally looked like an old movie. The actors were very well cast, each one stepping out of a regular role for them and into this real life character. The soundtrack is awesome, with this fabulous jazz singer. The topic is also very well handled, a political commentary shrouded by historical presentation. The story is well played out, not too Hollywood-ed. It was great, overall. Dad, if you haven't seen it, totally put it on your list.
So, as you can see, not everything is horrible. I'm healthy over all, things are getting done slowly but surely, the friends I have are here when I need them, I have a break next week. I'll be just fine, once somebody tells me exactly what the rest of my life will be like.